Because. I don’t know. Maybe. She’s a girl. It’d be weird for me to act like her.
It’s terrifying, to be honest. The prospect of having something mess with my head. But it’d be messing with my head in a way that happens once a month anyway, that’ll may me less likely to hurt people rather than more. And it’ll happen because I chose to make it happen.
It might be nice. If I am. It would be difficult to tell, from the inside. But I think I’d know. It’d be a dead giveaway when you started being nice to me.
…I don’t want it to go wrong. But it is fun to think about.
Right. I wouldn’t want it to happen. It would be inconvenient.
But it’s- I don’t have a better word than fun. To think about if it did happen. And I had to keep you from figuring it out, for some reason. But it just kept getting worse.
I’m a little jealous of him, sometimes. I’m grateful that I don’t struggle as much with the effects of the moon as he does. But it seems nice, in manageable amounts. To need you that much.
You like it, don't you? Being able to fix something that isn't a life and death situation. It's not like you'd ever choose not to be there for us. But if you did, we'd just be stuck being uncomfortably horny for a while and you'd feel like an asshole. It's not a lot of pressure.
Still being the most important thing in the world to us, but in a way that won't hurt us if you can't do it.
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like lizard princesses with tits
or baseball mascots
for all i know circuit science will too
all those connections
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problem solved
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AND ONE MORE THING.
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what one more thing
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If it does end up creeping you out, I won't do it. It wouldn't be the worst thing, graduating next summer.
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she's all the things you want to be while tutoring, isn't she
anyway i don't want you to have to wait though
so let's give it a try
and we'll see what happens
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And I don’t really want another solution. I want to do it this way
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because you're not worthy of her or something?
like i said
we'll watch you the first time and make sure you're ok
and then go from there
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It’s terrifying, to be honest. The prospect of having something mess with my head. But it’d be messing with my head in a way that happens once a month anyway, that’ll may me less likely to hurt people rather than more. And it’ll happen because I chose to make it happen.
I like having a reason to have to try it.
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i get that
and why you wouldn't like the idea of something messing with your head
but we'll be there
and maybe it'll be harmless
maybe you'll be cute
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…I don’t want it to go wrong. But it is fun to think about.
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if it went wrong and made you
uh
the other thing
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But it’s- I don’t have a better word than fun. To think about if it did happen. And I had to keep you from figuring it out, for some reason. But it just kept getting worse.
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and then pretty soon
you couldn't hold back anymore?
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…I suppose I could get something for that, when I pick the cookies up.
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and it might be kind of nice if it happened outside of actual iris
so adrian wouldn't be affected at the same time
so we could gang up on you
think about that
i bet you like the thought of it
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I’m a little jealous of him, sometimes. I’m grateful that I don’t struggle as much with the effects of the moon as he does. But it seems nice, in manageable amounts. To need you that much.
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being what you guys need
getting to be the thing that makes you feel better
it feels good
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Still being the most important thing in the world to us, but in a way that won't hurt us if you can't do it.
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also i like not having to really think about what the solution might be
no real chance of getting it wrong when you're making it pretty clear what you want
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And what is it that you think I'm going to want?
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